wad hv u been up to dese days?like do nth bsides go sch, eat lunch n shopping with frens n sleep. actually im very slacky on weekdays too, wake up, go sch, eat, online, prepare for labs, organize my stuff to bring for the nxt day, sleep. doing the same thing in the same order every day, bcums a daily routine alr. bt strangely my brain is nt working too well lately, cant focus in class, staring mode most of the time n is shutting dwn as early as 6pm! jus now when 6pm strikes, i noticed that my eyelids suddenly feel so heavy, brain suddenly blank out, like com in sleeping mode, total blackness. i stoned for a while, really, then suddenly regained consciousness, tell myself nt to fall asleep, still gotta prepare for tmr's lab n do a bit of research n look thru notes if possible. bt this is so damn HARD. i just couldnt keep myself awake n focused, looks like i would not be able to get anything done tnite..been thinking isit due to my poor diet that im feeling weak n energyless lately,n my brain like suddenly not functioning normally. so weird.

jus read yahoo news that the apple iphone i told u abt, its available for singtel sim card holders only, may nt work for m1 n star hub..n it cost 698 for a 8gb model, 898 for a 16gb model. so hefty, crazy. n it dosent hv mms,bt gt safari, youtube, email, itunes n other web n apple applications in built, n the design is so cool n sleek, wie screen, bt the camera only 2megapixels. it is a touchscreen phone cum pda, can call n sms by touching screen, no keypad, n functions as an ipod too! wa so sophiscated, how i wish gt somebody to buy for me..my lg phone huay huays n badly scratched n super bongs alr,n getting sian of it, altho the camera n functions isnt too bad, the camera quite good actually, the pictures are always very well taken n clear, when i upload onto mac,comparable to my digi cam. speaking of my digi cam, ive been so lazy to charge the battery. it has been sitting there, neglected for quite a long time alr. better go check it later to see if its still working, cos haven use it for some time liao..heh hehs.

n theres gg to be a 4th uni cuming up at changi area.which means higher chance of getting into a local uni! bt i doubt there will be any new or exciting courses offered, just the same old lousy limited courses, so sian. shld be more diverse, have a wider variety of choices for pple like me who wan to persue sth more unconventional, so that pple wun need to study overseas.

last nite so suay. i was putting my pot of beetroot dip back into the fridge, when it accidentally fell off from the fridge n committed suicide, the pot landed face down n the dip poured out of the container, it was ALL OVER THE PLACE. the bottom of the fridge, the shelf, the floor, it was a huge pinky mess! i just opened the thing last nite la, ate only a few spoonfuls, n nw the whole thing just rested on the floor, so wasted n the pink goo was so messy to clean up. i immediately rushed to the toilet roll in the toilet n took HUGE WADS of paper to clean that area, wad a mess. lousy.

then this morning, had a in-class open book mini test on the chapters covered so far, on animal bio. wa, i was rather STUCK n STUMPED by the question, stoned for a while before i start to leaf thru my notes to find some answers to answer that essay question given. realised that despite my weekly efforts in revising the notes n making my own mindmaps, i still cant answer the question properly, feel like as if i haven revised hard enof at all..a bit panicked n discouraged, think i may have to WORK EVEN HARDER. if nt surely fail in exams. bt in sp im always so slack, i always duuno wad is gg on n wad ive been studying until a few days before exams when i sit down n start memorizing the notes, then i get the whole picture, n i always study 3 days, non stop, before a paper. dunno whether i can do it this way with uni or nt, dunno will work out in the end or nt. im alr more hardworking, like never before, trying to revise as frequently as possible, altho there are 2 subjects im neglecting, bt like its nt working at all leh. bt feel rather pointless for me to start memorizing the notes, cos exams in october leh, too early to start now..bt the chem, i realised ive been getting more n more LOST......been copying the answers to problems blindly, n listening to lectures without knowing whats gg on, so chim!!! always feeling so suffocated n clueless during chem. scared i cant make it in exams. i dun understand wad the lecturer is teaching at all, dun like her style of teaching. its always the leacturer that determines whether i will pass or fail a subj, if the lecturer is screwed up, chances are i will screw up too. hope i can at least get a pass n nt get ratained..pray hard for me. i bet this sept break wld be intensive studying to catch up on my chem n the plant science. n numerous reports. AHHH!!!

today microbio practical, my lab partner didnt turn up! so i completed all the experimental tasks ON MY OWN. bt i managed to get it done quickly, even finished 30 mins early! felt that i m able to work better on my own, like faster n more organized..then i was chatting with a lab tech, asking him hw he feel about his job, n told him i was a lab tech too. guess how MUCH he earns.. he told me that he was paid 30BUCKS AN HOUR!!! n he said his job scope is to monitor the students during pract, go around to help n mark some data sheets ONLY! NO NEED PREPARE MATERIAL OR REAGENTS OR do any shitty work like repairing faulty centrifuges, pour agar, grow bacteria, purchase kits n chemicals, clean up lab, wash sink, autoclave smelly bacterial agars, like i did at ntu, n wad i get is A DAMN MEAGRE PERTHATICS PAY. dats like freaking A LOT for a small lab tech like him la!!!!! he like practically do nth, n earn big bucks, i bet he must be very rich by now, n the working hours here nt like sg's so long, n five days work week. wa, this place is so ridiculous. people are earning big bucks like crazy. even a raspberry picker can earn 15 dollars per hour.n mind u ,its in AUD. converted to sgd, i wld be DAMN RICH even if im only a lab tech here. thats like FOUR TIMEs of wad i earned at ntu, per mth la!!! crazy! n it even more SLACKY! so i feeling so tempted to get closer to him, see if i gt any chance, cos he must be quite rich, given that his pay is quite high, n hes quite cute too, quite a nice fellow.

wa, my assignment on the endangered plant listing statement is getting nowhere n im gg to hand in nxt mon. half done, the imp parts all undone n i just couldnt find ANY info even tho ihv done my research,even went library to look up on the ancient, yellow pages, termites infested reference books, hoping to find some help, bt couldnt find ANYTHING on my species! die la.. how to complete lidat...cant possibly make up info myself n invent own theories n observations. so suay to get such a WEIRd n RARE plant species. there are SO FEW recorded observations on it, i cant write anything at all. so sad n troubled:(

n the canteen i realised the stalls close so EARLY! today at 3pm aft class, i went to canteen, hoping to tar pau some food, then to my surprise, the stalls all packed up n closed alr! at 3pm! and they are opened only at 11am! such SHORT hours they operate, so damn slacky la. nt like our sch canteens, open at 8 or 9am, some still open at 5pm when we finish class, about to go home.wa, this is so weird. so FREAKY. 

eh!so late alr.. 8pm alr..time really flies, its thursday tmr, my one week break is drawing near! yay! bt gt so much to study during that week, only thing gud is no need to step out of the hse, can stay in bed all day, zai nu. haha. gtg, prepare my lab questions..perhaps play a bit of ds, cos tmr lab at 2pm! can wake up later in the morning! yay!

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