Thursday, September 4, 2008
Ahh!!!!
our dearest arh gongs left for the netherworld already??...u noe wad, i was stoning for a while, didnt cry when i was reading the post, and didnt when i finished reading, then suddenly, it took like 5 mins for my brain to register his demise, n i suddenly burst out sobbing:( sob sob:( i just hadnt expect him to leave so soon, guess his situation must be damn bad, n he must be feeling terrible just before he died... may he rest in peace n live happily in the netherworld, blessing and watching over us, just like how we will be praying n blessing n remembering him in our hearts..
this morning i suddenly tot of asking ma, sms her abt arh gongs condition, before i go do my report. cos i was rather concerned abt him, n past few days im really tied up, typing report 12 hours non stop, every day, its draining up all my energy reserves. chao mugging to the extreme. just to finish as many reports as i can, bt so far like done 90% of each of the two reports, n im gg to start on a new one today, supposedly:( so i better type this real quick n get down to it soon, if not tnite hve to stay up alr.
back to the sms to mars, ya den i tot of checking blog first, see whether u inactive langs gt update me on anithing or nt. den saw ur post..
den i jus sent a series of chain smses to mapas, comforting them and expressing my sadness n ask them to extend my blessings to him at his altar. just realised that i dun even have a decent pic of him, this is so terrible. but i remember there's a framed up foto of us n gramps in their bedroom, the one we took ages ago at a wedding dinner, when i still look like a juvenile n was fat. mayb should develope a few more copies from it, to keep as momento of him. if u gt the chance,HELP ME GRAB HOLD OF THAT PHOTO AND DEVELOP A COPY FOR ME K..
so u a the funeral now? its 1030am now at sg, tot having break too, went out to study with frens isit?? amk library? told u its like super unproductive to travel so far to "study" when in reality u noe u are nt gg to, n will end up having lunch n talk crap. ya, maybe its a better idea to stay at the wake n fold some money n ingots n burn properties n cash n credit card for him, n do ur revision n hws in btween. althou its fumey and noisy n stuffy, bt i guess shld fufill a least bit of respect for him and accompany him in while he's lying alone in the coffin.
wa, the relatives are are just jealous la. wad study ulu courses. bt i have to admit its nt as bustling and active as in other au cities, its like a peaceful little offshore island, stress free, like disconnected from outside world (pretty much esp the internet part), bt hey! its still a pretty nice little island..and im enjoying my studies as well, most of the time, at least im studying wad i wan n i like zoology courses related stuff.
aiyah, they r just jealous la..i think i will be bombarded by lots of queries during the cuming cny if i happen to be present.bt i think we might nt even hv celebration during cny at gramps place alr rite, cos arh gongs just passed away. so no more luan lor, yellow chewy abalones, meat balls, n my fav lor ah, arh mar's signature braised duck:( n the dry parchy bak kwas n san cen rou jelly sweets:(
so practically every one else is at the wake all day everyday? ma was dere all day long too? pa leh?gt work or nt? or stay at the wake all day too?
wa, to think that u even have the mood to eat some lousy off the steamer dinner dat day after hearing abt his death. wads ur great dinner dat nite? dun tell me its some fatty pork paus with dirty skin, or lor mai kai, or stale bee hoons..bet u must be feeling groggy from ur sleep dat u didnt feel ani sadness..dun feel guilty la. if i were to receive that call, i think i will burst into tears too n rush there immed.
in a way, i felt that this might be a relief for him too, so that he dosent have to go for useless n expensive treatments, swallow hundreds of pills,n worse thing is to give himself daily injections, he must be feeling very lousy n terrible having to go thru all these things when he shld be b enjoying his retirement life with dear arh mas. arh mars must be v sad?? she cried?? zi qin leh? i bet shes still cheerful like nth has happened? or did she suddenly turned emotional n come to realise the fact that the ye ye who has been overfeeding her hams all the while, has actually left her forever, n she will not see him again...?
getting late alr..ah, feel much better aftr crying out. im gg to start on my report now, maybe will update again late tnite or tmr.
the topshop tops? isit the blue and purple ones u took?? u can wear ah?size6 and damn skinny fitting and long tops, u like meh? i didnt bring it cos too many to carry, n i have to be anorexic to look good in them, cos its so clingy, the slightest bulge of my tummy would be visible. n i dun wan to make myself feel anorexic over here..
ah!!better go alr! such AWFUL SINGING rite now, outside, in early aftrnn. dampens my mood totally.hv to switch on my pae pae fan again! ba bye!
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