Thursday, September 4, 2008
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!ah gong passed away yesterday(tuesday)...at 8.25pm..in his room..sorry for the super delayed update, have been damn busy these 2 days lar. wanted to update yesterday, but then i reached home late then had to do homework.so yar..just reached home from the funeral and it's freakin 12sth alr!!tuesday when i reached home from sch it was 4pm plus..i felt so nauseous and sickly so i went to sleep straight away.mapas then went to visit ah gong at around 6pm, while i was still asleep. then suddenly at 8pm ma called me and said really frantically that ah gong was having breathing difficulty and MIGHT not make it thru the night and asked me if i wanted to go there then.but i was still feeling so sleepy and hvnt ate dinner yet, so i said i'd go after i eat dinner. then at 8.30 ma called and cried that ah gong PASSED AWAY ALREADY. i was damn shocked, but i somehow managed to keep my feelings inder control and still answered that i'll rush there right after eating dinner. it's only till today that i realised how ignorant i had been. i feel so guilty for not going there straight away, to see our beloved ah gong instead of eating my stupid dinner.he was lying in the bed that the hospital sent over to his house, the adjustable medical kind. motionless and cold. i was pretty scared to see him, like dead, so i didnt dare to touch him! i mean, even though he may be our grandpa but i still dont dare to touch a dead body. am i disrespecting him? i feel really bad. i didnt cry also, which is so strange coz i thought i would, which brings me to the important thing-im a heartless freak!! i heard that many ppl were crying when the coffin was closed, but i wasnt there :( had lessons in sch! argghhh im the most disrespectful, useless and emotionless granddaughter ever. then today, coz i need to start studying for promos i only went there at night. i think i shall go there in the afternoon tmr right? if not like so unfilial...everybody was present at the wake today, all our cousins there. we took turns folding and burning the papers, and luckily i brought my revision there to do! it's really boring there ma, so no choice.. i shall burn and fold more money for him, hopefully he will bless me with good results for the exams! then while i was sitting there so many ppl asked about ur whereabouts, and was pretty shocked when they knew u are studying in tas! the common places they expect are sydney and melbourne, and not tas, which is like such a touristy place for nice scenery etc. heh, one even said tas is for those ppl who want to study old-fashioned and ulu courses! poor thg eh :Dwoah ur roomates are terrifying! i definitely agree with ur decision to stay out of them. they might just accidentally hack u with a butcher chopper or sth, u better be careful! aiyoh it worries me leh, u have to live in such a hazardous and dangerous environment. how's ur stomach? so careless of u la, always swallowing fungi. maybe u r already immune to such moulds after being constantly exposed to them during ur lab sessions eh. next time PLEASE inspect ur stale food carefully before putting them in ur mouth ok :Dgotta go now, laptop no batt and im going to faint soon too! and oh ya! i found some new-looking tops in ur closet, would u mind lending it to me for a few days? coz i got nth suitable to wear to the funeral, all my clothes are like yellow or pink or either too gross! the tops i took are the topshop ones, 2 of the same design lar! y did u even buy 2 of the same thg! funny lar. but it fits well! :)okok, ba byeeee pi langs!!! feel lyk stoning on the sofa for awhile first :DLabels: ah gong, RIP
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